Fear - Week Seven

Fear. The word inevitably has impact the moment it is spoken. Upon hearing this notorious word, thoughts and images generate in my own mind reflecting on my own common apprehensions and anxieties. Insecurities fly through my head in a torrential domino effect. Will I a fail? Did I offend this person by speaking my mind? Will I ever find that unattainable, blissful, happily ever after that you only read about in romance novels? And then there is my biggest fear of all, what will people think?
 

 

All of these misgivings become a tidal wave to a path of obstacles and destruction. These fears take residence in our potentially perfect future, blocking our eyes from the light of achievement. Each fear is given strength with every negative thought that provokingly comes with it. The longer we feed into this timidity, the more difficult it is to overcome. What I have come to realize is working toward acknowledging these fears will help us to succeed. However, by eliminating these fears altogether, we can succeed beautifully.

 

A major part of overcoming my dominating fears is the realization of my own self-worth. Realizing who I am, what I have to offer in life, to the people in my life, and more importantly, to myself. Being independently strong-willed is one of my biggest assets. Self-motivation and being annoyingly relentless go hand in hand with my strong will. This combination gives me the capability to persevere and prevail. With that being said, I do not always put these qualities to good use.

 

Most commonly, we all get lost in our own angst. We can all be sidetracked from our path to our own personal “Perfect”. I often find myself being sidetracked with self-doubt. Constantly questioning myself and letting my fears take over. When that does happen, I acknowledge my fear, address what it is I am actually afraid of, and dive in head first. I feel as though addressing your fears with a clear mind is the main key to destroying them. I have also discovered that overthinking your fear is trouble. If you spend time wallowing in your own anxieties, you will succumb to them. Diving in head first with a sink or swim approach, I almost always come out on top. If I dive into my fear and I actually fail, then I will have failed graciously. I will have failed graciously because at the very least, I tried. And then, I will dust myself off and try again to conquer that fear.

 

F E A R

 

Take a back seat,

I’m tired of your lies.

I refuse to listen to you.

And no, I won’t compromise.

 

Your presence is unwanted.

Your full of straight doubt.

My life will overcome you.

It's time you know what I’m about.

 

You haunt people’s dreams

With your nasty scheming ways.

I’m done with being shaded.

Its time  for brighter days.

 

You feed off insecurities.

You compel me to hold back.

It’s the hate in me I have for you

That makes me want to attack.

 

When you take hold of me

That's my problem, I know.

Real talk, this relationship is over,

And it’s time for you to go.